need my meds upped again... i cant do much more of this... thank god for tricare.

totally irratated... My husband refuses to let anything go. We dont have the storage to hold on to things that are not being used.. I have down sized everything i own that is valuable to me to 1 box.. and i still go through it and get rid of things..  My husband has 43095874398759384758496798347659436 million boxes of stuff just sitting around. I am so tired of holding on to shit. shit we dont need.  he doesnt know where to store any of it? get rid of shit and you will know where to store it.  im just irratated. My husband takes all fucking week to clean a kitchen. to do anything he takes forever.. i love him but i wish he would pull his weight around here. Granted he works but i take care of 2 kids and my medical stuff.. he works and sits on his ass...  this may be just a vent post.. but im just so tired of not getting any help.

My babies.. they are all grown up.. I cant believe how time flies. Logan is almost 3 months old now.. Feels like just yesterday i had him. Alaina she is almost 2.5. totally makes me feel old.. And aaron? well hes going bald... lol just joking.. I am surprised he is not reading this over my shoulder.. lol I love him..

Today is thanksgiving.. He made a great dinner. Although we forgot about the altitude and didnt cook the turkey long enough so we had to nuke it.. lol Then i dropped corn all over the floor and just had a total melt down.

I am just soo stressed out. I mean my husband is getting ready to deploy again and he just got home. I am in a new place and away from family and its my first holiday away.. So yeah its been hard. But i am soo glad i got to spend it with my husband and children. Some friends i know dont even get that!  To my friends husbands that couldnt be home... Thank you, god bless, and come home soon!

Logan is getting soo big. He can roll over when he wants to. from belly to back that is. He is trying to crawl.  I really am not looking forward to that! i am gonna need to buy another baby gate! lol.

We got our new tv.. I am quite excited.. Gotta thank a guy named Marcus for not paying attention and rear ending us.. lol Geico paid for my tv... lol

Anyways... i am off of here.... hope all is well and you have a great thanksgiving!

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I wish i didnt hurt... I wish that my body was normal. I wish my daughter was normal. I wish that i was loved by my husband.. I wish i didnt have to fight to make things perfect... Lots of wishes... and no magic fairy...

I type her... its like a diary... no one reads or responds...

headaches

ug.. my headaches suck. I wake up with them and i have them all day. I wish i knew why. My MRI came back good so i have no idea what it is from.

i wish  my 2 yr old would listen but alas i know she is 2. but she does everything she can to push my buttons..

soo tired.

pumpkin patch.

So we went to the pumpkin patch today! it was soo much fun to see my husband with his children out and about in the pumpkin patch. We didnt get to go with him last year because of his deployment to afghanistan. So i wanted to make sure to go this year.

We got some great pictures of the kids..

im out.

Well i no longer have a home to go to. We are officially living with my parents. We have our stuff being picked up soon and then we have to clean and were are officially out of the house the 15th. I really hope we have a place to go to in colorado... makes me super nervous.

counting down....

Is not always good... I hate this.. I hate moving.. I dont want to leave my family. I am not happy about it. I am going to miss them and i am going to miss my friends.

I know i am going to be with my husband and my 2 beautiful kids and that makes it bearable but how do i take my children away from my parents? Away from everything they know?

i love my husband soo much. I wouldnt want to move away from my family for anyone else. Screw everyone who says he isnt a good husband or a good dad.. They dont know him like i do. I wouldnt want anyone else to be my husband or the father to my children.

I have less then 30 days till i leave. I am soo nervous and scared.....

Another day

Another day... Oh how i just want to sleep.

My little one is a week old today. Can you believe it? its already been a week! ALaina is a great big sister but she tries to get too close alot of the time. I am afraid she is gonna hurt him. He is sooo little.

Went to the dr yesterday and he weighs 6lbs 10 oz. only gained 1 oz in almost a week.

We have so much to do in the next few weeks.. I am getting nervous cause i have never done this before.. I hope everything goes smoothly!

update on logan...

well we went to logans check up.. he is 6lbs 10 oz. still such a little guy. doesnt fit in newborns still. Maybe one day. haha..

We have a check up the end of next week. So much to do in such a little amount of time.

not understanding.

Sometimes i just dont understand my husband. Lately he has been so loving and touching. He just holds me for no reason, tells me he loves me, and is always giving me kisses.. I enjoy it soo much and i really hope he doesnt go back to being what he used to be...

Speaking of the devil gotta go.

Hello!

Welcome to my blog! I am going to try to keep up with this one. Not sure how well i will do it but alas i can try again!  


I am crystal. Almost 27. Married to the man of my dreams Aaron. We have 2 beautiful children together. Our daughter Alaina is 2. She is just a sweet little girl. Although she can be a little devil if not watched close enough, but i think all kids can get that way.  Logan is at the moment only 4 days old! He keeps me on my toes. Always changing his schedule. But i wouldnt trade it for anything. I love him more each day! 


We have 1 ornery kitty. her name is Smallcat.  She is 6 yrs old. And an ole bitty!!! lol 


We currently live in fort lewis washington but in less then 1 month we will be on our way to fort carson colorado! Never been there and not too happy to go as i have to take and pull my children away from my parents. They have the best relationship and i hate to see that go south! I will miss my family tons.. Even the ones i dont always get along with. But this is my life. This is what i signed up for. My husband has a duty not only to his country but to each and every person out there. He does what many people are scared or to much of a puss to do. 


We have been through 2 deployments. 1 was to Iraq and 1 was to Afghanistan.  I am glad he is home but as long as there is a job to do i am sure there will be more deployments. 


Well im off here for now.. Logan is waking up and i must feed and change him.. Have a good day!